The Big Day

Sweet Sweet Relief!

Guys, i'm officially a "Master of Engineering"

How do I feel?

1. Grateful to God in heaven. I got to the point where before I went to bed at past midnight I would pray for the strength to not give up and physical strength to wake up at 4am and continue cranking it. I would miraculously wake up at 3.55, drag myself into the shower, make strong coffee and play a yoruba movie while running my simulation.

2. I'm proud of myself! I'm so so happy that I have followed my dad's footsteps and paved the way for my younger sister.

3. I'm excited about the graduation gown! It's not as cool as the PhD one but it still has a lil something to it. toh badt!

My defense/oral exam was really really good. I answered my questions well, I was confident. I almost didn't have something to wear but that's another story entirely. I took the approval signature page and made 20 copies. Even my grandma will be getting a copy! It felt so good to have all my professors shake my hand and congratulate me.

I woke up this morning to an email from my advisor saying I hope you celebrated last night. BOY did i celebrate!

After 2 pitchers of margaritas my girl and I gave up and went dancing for a bit. I was so bloody wasted.

It just feels really good. I can't take it for granted. 

I have to take time to learn how to be a member of society again. I haven't used make-up, used body scrub, perfume, rubbed cream well, in at least a MONTH. The only things I didn't stop doing are brushing my teeth, 2 minute showers and deodorant. Apart from that, everything was on hold. My apartment is a mess, I shall be employing someone off craigslist to clean it.

I have one test next week and a few minor changes to make to my thesis but in my head I'm done with school!! No more experiments or simulations or safety glasses or gloves or room temperature ionic liquids! 

What goes up must surely come down.

AND - I'm getting published! My parents are gonna be so proud! I'm about to be a published scholar somebody!

Please take a moment to thank God for me! God comes through. I'm at home watching trash TV and about to fry dodo. I'm a normal human being once again!

xx

CosmoDiva

Last Lap

*waving*

Isn't it funny that the last 2 weeks of my graduate student life seem so unbearable?

I'm so tired, so unmotivated, I stay yawning. even 4 shots of espresso can't keep me alert!

My thesis defense is next week :|

I am prepared in terms of understanding what I did and some of the results I got

The other results, your guess is as good as mine. I wish I was joking

I haven't prepared my slides

No, i'm not doing anything at the moment

I'm just tired

I'm nervous too. I have this really tough professor on my committee. He goes for blood!

Not looking forward to the questions at all

My mum is planning this super graduation bash and I haven't been involved in any way

Just.So.Tired.

I just wanna lay in bed and sip water/coffee/gatorade all day long. And maybe shop on HSN like an old woman. It's that bad.

If I never have to read or talk about room temperature ionic liquids ever again, it won't be soon enough!

I'm skinny, my neck is long, I'm now SO black, my lips are dark, hell i'm sure under my acrylic my nails are dark too (of course I can't ever be stressed enough to not get my nails done. how do u think I stay sane?). My braids are nasty, my skin isn't glowing and let's not even talk about the dark circles.

Times like these you will quickly find out if a man loves u. I haven't lined my eyes in like a month! Poor AK has been there for moral support. And my best friend :)

Things I have done

- made reservations for graduation dinner

- ordered indiremi color 4, 16 inches (i must be a babe!)

- ordered a dress. a little snug but at least it's not short

- got a sublease for my apartment for the summer!

Things I have not done

EVERYTHING ELSE!

I need an assistant to plan my graduation and a clone to defend my thesis for me!

Crawling to the finish line

CosmoDiva

P.S. to all the young and restless people I have told to that chemical engineering is "not so bad". I lied to you. Run. Far. While you can still laugh at jokes and watch reality shows. Don't look back!

Jesus Help!

Chei! I miss the leisurely days of blogging. Life has been rough academically, I got off bbm to focus on my thesis. My results aren't great, my advisor is in Europe vacationing, the equipment is faulty, i'm a sucky researcher. It's just a recipe for flaming hot disaster.

In other news, I got a second job offer in a consulting company, doing exactly what i've always wanted to do - process engineering/design/simulation. I've accepted the offer and i'm now looking for a way to reject the Goldman Sachs position (which all my friends in the non-engineering sector think i'm crazy for rejecting). At the end of the day, i'm a process engineer at heart and I very much like to close work at 4PM like every engineer. Plus the pay was almost double so... no dulling!

In a way I feel like this thesis meltdown is a way of keeping me in check. I'm grateful for the many many things that are happening easily, and in season. So i won't let this break me, I have to keep on pushing it.

I resume in July and I just HOPE to my maker in heaven that I can defend my thesis by mid-may like every normal person and get on with my life. AK and I are planning a fun vacation in June and I need to plan my wedding before work starts.

More wedding talk later. Off to take some more data.

Have a great weekend!

xx

CosmoDiva

Miracles Happen!

I got my first full-time job offer at a global company last Friday. I got a call to come in a day after the most tiring interviews of my LIFE, wore my one and only power suit and met up with yet another VP for what I thought was going to be another round of brutal interviews. She was saying something about everyone who met you really likes you and it is my pleasure to let you know that we are making you an offer...blah blah blah...3 weeks to accept offer and return the letter to them...relocation...competitive compensation...we hope you accept the offer...health insurance benefits...

I totally blanked out. It took me a grand total of 3 days to get a job in the #1 firm in the world in that line of business. I mean, the interviews were brutal but still....3 days! Only? God can do, anything, anytime, anywhere and anyhow He wants. I called AK and whispered, I got a job. How did I get this job? To put things in perspective, the average company in the US will  interview you 3 times over the phone, if you pass they will fly you down to their main office in a month, take another 2 weeks to 'make a decision' and then make an offer at that point. I'm still waiting on so many potential employers to 'get back to me'. But in 3 days, someone showed me that He is the key that opens the door. I haven't even finished my thesis and He made a way.

I'm so grateful to God from the bottom of my heart. Now I just have to finish my thesis! :)

Have a nice week guys!

My Weekend In Pictures

much needed juice for my long drive to Nashville to meet-up with AK

body-con skirt hunting at Express...especially with my 50 off 150 coupon, I was pumped!

unbelievable fit! i couldn't afford them but 100% worth the cost!

AMAZING body butter on the cheap!

out on the town!

trying on my new skirt 

#countryclub

10 Pages Into Thesis, Wishlist Loading...

Dear daddy, the way I see it, the harder it gets the more things I deserve ;)
These shoes will take a girl from entry level to CEO in no time!

Number one on my wishlist (for now) 

Happy New Week guys!!

I'm off to do more writing. 

Pray for me that my PROII simulation runs this week, if not state of emergency.

xx

CosmoDiva